The cowardice of suicide

The living are the ones who are burdened with the suffering after cowards take  the easy way out.

She now keeps a wary eye on the passengers waiting on the platform as she pulls into a station.

After a jumper, all drivers "lose a bit of themselves," Shelley says.

They all change forever, she says, including her husband.

The train they're riding stops at a station and idles, and the couple wave at a driver walking past on the platform.

Two weeks before Pett's incident, a jumper died on that driver's run.

"He's not the same anymore," Shelley says.

In the immediate aftermath, drivers' "faces go white like they lost their soul," she says. "It's like they're wandering."